We feel the weight on our backs but they are the burden that lifts us. Burdens that allow us to fly.

idk what im feeling now. those f-up feelings. overthinking ruins everything. insecurities kills. jealousy kills. what doesnt kills. wts. i feel stupid about eveything. blame myself for being too indecisive , too gullible to believe the lies over and over again. thought things will go well . but its not. lolol. joke right. what a joke. infact . im a joke. bet you are laughing huh . omg what am i thinking . :x heh , but , seriously . what am i thinking. i should be happy isnt it. i shouldnt feel like this. ya! shouldnt . lol . okay , and write out how you feel and then tear it. feel dam awesome thats why i love scribbling. HAHAH. JOKE HUH. LOL . okay , ytd was super fun. craziest day out with leona and adriana , its been so long since we last went out. h2h talk , and we cook cheese pasta. like a cool only. actually all adriana cook. lol , and her brother dam cute. i miss children's day . :( i miss my childhood days. i miss my bus kids . i miss children church . and omg. i feel like a crazy pedophile :x HAHHAAHHHA . went to service today . headache , i think i not enough sleep. lol , cgm today is awesome. :) heh , God's love is like a sun. hes always there even we never see/feel him. just like at night we cant see the sun , but we all know sun is always there. so yeah , and the sun will always shine on us. the everlasting love and unfailing love where he will always be there for us :) woah , and i think each one of us have diff revelation on god's love. everybody have their diff point of view of everything. and since everybody have diff view . we shouldnt care if any one of them judge us. i know its hurts knowing people judge about ourselves. but , all we gotta do is not to bother cause thats their point of view . they dont really know how you feel inside , why do you do that . so yeah , be ourselves . and find you own true friends . cause true friends will always be there for you no matter what happens . :) so cheers , think positive!