it hurts , knowing that we've grown apart and everything went by so quickly.

okay , eoy is next week. and i should be studying like now. hahaha , i need motivation. i wanna just lie down on my bed and start stoning. okay i guess im mad. heh , ytd had an awesome service with pastor kong and amazing fellowship with cellgroup. :) talked to wendy about what happened recently , and i really thank God that He place her in my life , being my cgl. really thank god for her , and i appreciate whatever she had done for me. sometimes , when you are goinf through dry seasons , all you gotta do is to seek God more. asking him to fill you , give you strength. and dont ever think of giving up. cause his love is unfailing , and he will never forsake you like how people did. as he is our lord , our father , a refuge . for he is great , amazing

Isaiah 41:10 fear not, for I am with you; be not dismayed, for I am your God; I will strengthen you, I will help you, I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.

hmm , but sometimes when you try to be optimistic and keep telling yourself you should not break down , you cant seems to do so. right? it suck isnt it. cause , you only focus on the bad stuffs. argh , i wish i can be optimistic enough , invulnarable enough. ah , suck to be me huh. but things just keep piling up. argh , i hope i got the strength to overcome. haiiiii. and i feel so naive , believing things thats are utter bullshits. i miss the old days , the old times when we were so close , and those memories. but still , why should i miss you when you dont even give a shit. right? i feel so stupid , and i actually believed whatever you said few days ago. however , i really hope im wrong. please. please tell me its wrong , idw to have that uneasy feeling anymore. im really tired. and i wonder , do i really mean something to you? i doubt so right. hai , whatalife. argh , i feel like scribbling paper now. please please , tell me something. and it had been two days alr .