that little piece of hope we all hold on to.

hmm , i gotta kick the habit of sleeping too much. its my goal. HAHAHA omg. i think this dam joke , but well . i really gotta stop sleeping in class! hhahahha , i think i kept daydreaming in class that spencer chan had to come infront of my table and ask if im alright. i swear , hes scary! LOL. and hes dam thick skin. omg. lololol. past few days , i have been thinking. whats wrong. i felt insignificant , felt dam dry. and really , overthinking ruins it all. maybe im too sensitive , assume too quickly. hai , and i lost all faith , hopes , courages , and the fire i had. temp and trails came in . i want to have the strength to overcome all those. but it seems that i cant , i cant do it. i have no courage to do it , no faith and definitely no strength. well , i guess for now i gotta concentrate in my studies , eoy coming in like 10 more days ?! heh , and i guess no one truely understand me , sometimes its better to be alone . okay enough , stop thinking deanna. be strong , gotta be invulnarable. cause no one will be there for you , you gotta only depend on yourself.